It's very lonely around here. When Brian's not here and when Peter and Kennon are at work and when my brother is at school and my mom's busy or letting me have my time, it gets very lonely. I miss Gato. Who else am I supposed to inform about the surprises and joys of being in a relationship again? Who else am I supposed to giggle with or worry with or cry with? When I break down Tuesday - and I know I will - who will hug me? Okay, I know the guys will, but will they really want to deal with me crying? Besides, I don't want to put that on their shoulders. And my mom will hug me, but she'll start crying too. And my sister will hug me, but I'll just sob harder.
So here I am, the only girl left. My only confidant is in Massachusets. She hasn't e-mailed me. I don't even know if she knows I'm with Brian (*sigh*). Its very disconcerting. It'll be horrible trying to tell Tiffany and Lauren and Helena everything. Because there will be things they just don't get about him because they don't know him like Gato and I do. I can't tell my mom, no matter how much she approves of him, because its the principle of the thing. Maybe I'll just write a book. But a book doesn't answer back. It doesn't sooth fears. It doesn't laugh at the funny parts. Or say "aww" at the sweet parts. Though it does immortalize every written moment, it just doesn't do the trick.
I miss you, Gato. Write me soon.
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